I AM FAT AS FUCK.

NO REALLY.
THIS IS CRAZY!
WHY ME?
& WHY AM I TOO LAZY?
I SCARED TO FUCK UP MY HAIR BUT THEN I'M LAZY.
I'M JUST FRUSTRATED W/ MY LIFE?
I'M LOSING ALL TONE!!!!!!!
I'M LAZY!
I NEED A WORKOUT PARTNER.
I'M GETTING NECK FAT!!! DOUBLE CHIN.
I'M OUT OF CONTROL.
I USED TO BE ABLE TO STARVE MYSELF, BUT I COULDN'T IF I TRIED. I'M TOO EMOTIONAL. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
I DON'T HAVE A GYM PASS, CAN'T AFFORD ONE.
I'M BROKE. I THINK I'M STRESSED/DEPRESSED SO THAT'S ADDING ON THE FAT!!!

I'M JUST ABOUT TO TRY REALLY HARD TO GET A JOB, I THINK THAT'LL HELP CHANGE ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND OH I HAVEN'T BEEN ACCEPTED TO THE SCHOOL I NEED TO BE ACCEPTED INTO.
I'M JUST FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW - AND BEING FAT IS NOT HELPING. FUCKKKKKKK!

tea.

when I blogged every day I was doing good.

I think blogging helps me stay on task, truthfully.
My life was alright when I blogged. A level of sanity.
I stayed focused on my goals cause I was constantly reminded by reading my blog.
So therefore I am going to begin blogging all the time again.
I just want a flat tummy, loose the love handles.
I have nothing else to do either since I no longer have any friends.
I'm really contemplating not going to prom either. Fuck it.
I'm not going to enjoy myself there? I mean I have guy friends, but there kissing friends.
UGH. I just want a perfect bod, nice clothes/shoes, a new job and a happy mind.

I think working out will help clear my head.

need to get my body together.

I know I go through this all the time......